Hmmmm...

Makin lama gw makin jarang nulis dimari. Sampe2 gw bingung nyari judul yang pas buat postingan gw. Semerosot itukah kemampuan otak gw??? Kebanyakan libur?? Mungkin... meski libur, tapi GW TETEP KE KAMPUS!! *bete* plis gw butuh main

Dari sejak mulai liburan entah kenapa gw makin "terperosok" di kepanitiaan kampus. Awalnya cuma partisipasi di 1 acara, dan gw baru sadar, sampe detik ini gw berada di 3 kepanitiaan. Dan bakal ada 4 kegiatan dimana gw berada di dalamnya sebagai orang dibalik layar alias panitia. Dua kegiatan bakal selesai di September ntar. 2 kegiatan lainnya ada di bulan Oktober dan Mei 2015. Dan juga, kegiatan himpunan. Karena sebentar lagi angkatan 2011 bakal lengser dari himpunan dan 2012 yang bakal pegang, gw sebagai angkatan 2012 yang berbakti *halah*, berniat untuk ngelanjutin keberadaan gw sebagai hantu di himpunan. Sejujurnya IP gw semester 4 ini turun, meskipun nggak begitu jauh turunnya. Yah, dekiru dake akirametakunai lah. Nyokap pun nggak suka kalo gw ikut organisasi atau kepanitiaan... jadi gw ikut ini itu di kampus yaa beliau nggak tau, dan gw juga nggak pernah singgung2. Ohiya, klub NBC yang gw ikutin juga sebentar lagi ganti kepengurusan, entah siapa anak 2012 yang bakal jadi ketua klub. Plis banget jangan gw (pede banget lu, njir)

Btw, hari kamis kemaren hasil nouryoku shiken keluar. Nouryoku shiken itu ujian kemampuan bahasa Jepang. Yaa bisa dibilang TOEFL nya di bahasa Jepang lah. Bulan Juli kemaren gw ambil level N3, dan ujiannya di SMA 70 Blok M, and you know what, PAS BULAN PUASA TJOY! Oh God, pas itu gw alhamdulillah lagi nggak puasa, jadi gw nggak begitu fokus ke puasa-nya gw dan bisa jajan abis ujian. Juli ini tuh gw ujian N3 untuk yang kedua kalinya. Ujian N3 pertama gw, gw nggak lulus. Itu karena gw ga ada persiapan sama sekali. Gw nggak punya buku latian. Biasanya gw pinjem dan potokopi buku temen. Untuk yang kedua kali ini, gw niat banget belajar, sampe2 gw pinjem 2 jenis buku latian noken dari perpus JF dan 1 buku pinjem ke temen. Dan gw sampe bikin catetan kecil yang gw tulisin tata bahasa baru yg belom dipelajari di kuliah. Bukan buat nyontek, tapi ini emang salah satu cara gw untuk nginget sesuatu. Di hari H, jujur, gw rada gugup, gw nggak mau gagal lagi, karena BELAJAR ITU CAPEK!! Alhamdulillah gw akhirnya bisa lolos N3 dengan nilai yang.... lumayan. Ujian N3 pertama gw, gw cuma dapet 84. Alhamdulillah ujian yg kedua kalinya gw bisa dapet 104. Next, gw masih bingung mau lanjut apa nggak. Tapi nyokap nyuruh gw buat lanjut ujian lagi tapi belajar buat noken itu capek.

22 September, gw akan memasuki semester 5. Semester dimana gw harus menentukan akan ke bidang mana gw akan merapat. Linguistik? Budaya? Sejarah? Sastra? Untuk saat ini gw masih prefer ke linguistik. Tapi entahlah, mungkin pikiran gw bakal berubah menjadi power ranger.

Halangan itu bernama 'Jarak'

Kadang aku berharap kalo dunia ini lebih baik balik kayak dulu, pangea.
Dimana semua benua di dunia ini jadi satu, nggak dipisahin sama samudra, selat, dan lautan.
Bahkan dulu negara kita berdekatan.
Mungkin aku nggak perlu keluar uang banyak untuk sekedar bertemu sama kamu.
Kalo mau ketemu kamu bisa langsung capcus, nggak perlu bilang "kangen" berulang kali.

Kenapa sih kita harus jauh?

Sampe sekarang aku mikir kalo hubungan kita ini nggak serius.
Kita beda negara.
Beda kebiasaan.
Beda pandangan.
Beda adat.
'Jarak' itu yang bikin aku selalu mikir bahwa we are too impossible to be true..
Cuma satu perbedaan yang bikin kita saling jatuh cinta.
Ya, kita beda kelamin.

Aku selalu khawatir kalo kamu bakal nemuin wanita yang akan kamu nikahi di sana.
Aku khawatir kalo kamu ninggalin aku tiba-tiba.
Aku khawatir akan ada rasa kehilangan untuk yang kesekian kalinya harus aku rasakan.
Aku takut waktu itu akan tiba di saat yang nggak tepat.
Semakin lama aku makin ingin menganggap kalo ini bukan hubungan yang serius, semakin sadar pula bahwa aku semakin nggak mau kehilangan kamu.

Kamu pun semakin baik hati.
Semakin sering bikin aku seneng.
Semakin banyak yang aku dapatkan dari kamu.
Tapi... apakah ini akan bertahan??

Kamu yang nggak pernah tau bhs inggris, sekarang jadi punya aplikasi penerjemah di hp.
Aku pikir kamu nggak pernah mau belajar bahasa asing.

Kamu pun akhirnya bilang "愛してる", padahal sebelumnya "大好き"lah yang sering aku dengar.

Ah sudahlah...

Mungkin aku terlalu menggebu dalam percintaan semu ini.
Mungkin aku sedang terjebak dan rela jika pada akhirnya akan tersakiti.
'Jarak' lah yang menjadi cambukku untuk menyadari bahwa mungkin semua ini hanya sementara.

Namun, aku berharap kalo rasa ini bisa bertahan dan akan ada sesuatu yang membahagiakan di akhir cerita ini.

We never meant to be,
but at least I want to treasure my days with you preciously... until you forget me...

Hati-hati terhadap jarak. Dengan waktu yang cukup bisa mengikis rasa pelan-pelan
-@yeahmahasiswa

あの声が好き！！

Today is the first time I heard my beloved one's voice. Umm.. it's a heavy voice, but I love it.
I do love his voice.
We tried to talk on phone, I could hear him, but unfortunately he didn't hear me. Maybe it's because my wi-fi is f*cking bad. I thought that the wi-fi is good but the fact it was bad.
So.. I tried to record my voice to say some words for him.
First trial, failed. I sent the uncompleted recording lol.
The second.. success!!
He said that I have an accurate Japanese and my voice is beautiful lol I don't know that's the truth or not, but it makes me confident to speak Japanese more fluently.
I'm bad in talking, not only in Japanese, but also in Bahasa, I'm not talking frequently, except to some closest friends. That's why I don't have any confidence to talk using foreign languages.
I said that we should try talking again any time on phone, and he agreed.

By the way, he has to have his medicine twice a day, at morning and night. I just don't know what he will do if he fell asleep when he's working. I don't know the exact time he needs to have the medicine. I hope he can manage it so he can still work well. Maybe it's better if he takes some holidays more? Working as public servant is hard, right? I feel worried about this.
I don't know but, I just want to hug him and ask him to share his burdens on me too.
Why am I so far?

Long time no blogging and today's shocked moment

Feels like I don't need to tell when I wrote the last post here lol
and now I'm posting just because I don't have anyone to talk right now, and my beloved one just fell asleep.
Today he was feeling sick and not well. He went to the hospital to check his health. First time he said that he wants to go to hospital, I was shocked and thought that there's something wrong about his body. He feels pain around his eyes when he looks light (from electricity). He said he went to dermatology first then to ophthalmology. I felt strange about the name and thought about something serious. A serious disease of course. I felt worry right away and curious about the result of examination.

Then..... he said that he has Zoster or Shingles or Herpes zoster or whatever the name.

Just could feel goosebumps. Speechless. Powerless.

His doctor said that he has that disease because of the accumulation of stressful and tiring feeling in his body. And it is right that the disease is the result of stressful and tiring feeling . I just can't imagine how stressful he is, how tiring his body is, so that the disease has attacked his body. I just can't say anything but support him far away. I don't want to think anything but hoping that he will be okay, as he always says "大丈夫だよ" on our chat.

Usually I forces him to talk with me until late night because I always missed him and don't have much time to talk. I always forget that we are in different timezone. His place is 2 hours faster than here. Thinking about that, I feel that recently I has cut his sleep time and I feel bad right now. Though he said that it's not my fault but I still feel bad. His sleep time has been chaos and everyday he needs to go working so early. He needs to have much sleep time, and I really need to hold my own feelings back, not to have him talking with me whenever I want. I need to do that!

I think to make his sleep time early than before. From now, he has to go to bed on 8 or 9 pm. I know that our quality time will be cut more, but it's okay if it's for his health. So, whenever we have free time, it will be our precious time. And his medicine will make him feeling asleep, so I think it will make him sleep faster easily. That's all I'm thinking about.

But, I can't do anything for him right now, and it's painful.

私月曜日が嫌いですか??

"I hate monday"と言う人がたくさんいるねーどうして?私はなんか返事を見つけたんだ。

渋滞。
色々な仕事をしなきゃ。
授業がいっぱいある。

なんか大変な日だと思うよ!

今朝、渋滞が大変だった!
8時の授業に遅れたーくそ!
私は8時45分に大学に来た。
先生は8時半クラスに来てよかったなー(笑)

いつも6時半に大学へ行くのに、今日は渋滞のことを全然考えない。道があまりこんでいません、月曜日のに。でも今日は違うんです。

明日、何時に行かなきゃかな?
(^_^;)

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